Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Are We Still Friends?

Well, I hope I didn't make everyone hate me after yesterday's post, but I make no apologies for who I am. Actually that's not true. I apologize all the time for who I am. One of the drawbacks to having little to no self confidence, apparently. Yes, I am a Bible-thumping, creation-believing, abortion-opposing, homeschooling, conservative Christian and... (Gasp!) a Republican (most of the time), who doesn't really enjoy politics and doesn't trust most politicians. BUT... I am also sooo many other things. I'm a bad dancer, for example. I'm fat. I'm a pretty darn good baker (which explains that whole fat thing). And a semi-professional ventriloquist. Okay, that one was a lie, but I'm trying to sound interesting here. I like long walks on the beach at sunset. Which makes living in the Midwest all the more unfortunate.

Anyway, I appreciated your comments yesterday, as always! I don't mind opinions that differ from my own and I trust most of you don't either. We all have our big girl panties on, right? If I expect you to agree with me, I will warn you in advance.

The big news for today is that Plan B has just become Plan A. Darrell and I have decided to fill out an application with a new agency and continue this adventure with a new program. Scary! But thrilling, too. I'm so excited, but trying to keep my feet on the ground at the same time. It's hard. No more details than that yet, though. I'm bursting at the seams to tell you all about it, but if I learned anything at all from our Vietnam experience it's not to shoot my mouth off so soon. Counting the chickens before they hatch, and all that. I promise I'll fill in the blanks when things start falling into place. There's going to be so much to do pretty soon- I'm sure we'll need a revised homestudy done, which will mean getting my house to that obsessive level of clean that drives my family crazy and makes me feel a little like a drill sergeant... in a fun way. We have to submit pictures of Darrell and I with our application, which will mean losing 35 pounds in about a week or so, and doing lots of test shots to see which poses camouflage most of my chins. I have to find out how to change the I171H. Frap. I don't know how to begin with that. It just expired, so it needs to be renewed, plus it needs to be changed to the new place. Do I just need to start over and get a new one? Alex is now 18, so he'll need to get fingerprinted, too. Frap again. Then there will be a new dossier to put together. Do I sound like I'm talking fast? Because I feel like I'm talking really, really fast... Oh.My.Gosh. I haven't been this happy for months. I'm so excited to be actively pursuing the path to our child again. The disappointment of Vietnam is certainly not going to go away anytime soon, but this is definitely renewing my sense of hope. Pray for me, though- it's obviously impossible not to get excited, even though I know I shouldn't. If this thing goes belly up too, I'm going to be devastated and you will be able to find me in a Baskin Robbins with my head buried in a 5 gallon bucket of ice cream.

14 comments:

Miles' Mama said...

Yay for Plan A!!! ;) That is really exciting and I am soooo curious to hear more. Give us a hint, just a little one? And, it goes without saying that of course we can all have different opinions while still having lots of love for each other. That's what bloggy friends are for, right?

char said...

I am so excited for you with Plan B turned Plan A! I want to hear more- real bad! (insert whiny voice for the "real bad" part) I'm happy you're happy and hope the best for the next round of paperwork.

Hubbards said...

We have just went through all of which you are talking about. We are waiting for the USCIS office to send us the change of country status approval. Our daughter also turned 18 before we got everything renewed and so she had to go along for a few trips of getting fingerprinted. She felt a little put out BUT she got over it!! If you need any advice about it or anything just let me know. It was pretty easy really except for the waiting part!!! AND of course the frustration that we had already done this and were supposed to have a little one by now!! :) Congratulations on your new plan A!!!

Tina, KCMO

Rebecca said...

I am so happy for you!!!! We once had to change our I171 and it was real easy! We just called and they walked us through it. I think it was about 3 weeks later we had our new one in hand! God Bless!!

I know that the second plan always works out better!!! I have 2 beautiful girls to show for it!

rainbowmom said...

Still friends? Your my new friend! Do not apologize for your convictions. We are the King's daughters, we have no reason for a lack of self confidence...however, honestly, when I forget who I am, I too struggle there.

I am so sorry that VN didn't work out. You are blessed that husband is willing to make Plan B, Plan A. I'm hearing so many people say that husbands aren't willing to try another plan. Those are who I really feel for right now.

Christina said...

So exciting that you are moving forward with a new plan. It always feels so much better to be doing something than just waiting and waiting for something to happen. (except when I stress myself out because there is SO MUCH to do...)
Hope things come together quickly for you!

laura said...

Congrats on moving forward with a new plan! I'm excited to hear about it, when you're ready to share. This whole post had me cracking up, BTW!

Kelly said...

Congrats on starting your new path! I can't wait to hear more.

Angel said...

I am so happy for you!!!! :0) Angel

Nicki said...

Ooooh, Plan B! I'm intrigued, you are a tease! Seriously I don't blame you for staying mum for now. But I can't wait to hear the details!!!!

I'm with Laura, this post had me ROTFL!!!

Lina said...

YAY!!! I'm so happy for you! Can't wait to hear more.

myminivanrocks said...

I don't know how to disguise anything in a photo by myself, but I try to stand partially behind my husband to disguise my a** in photos of the two of us. It works pretty well. Good luck!

Can't wait to hear more!

S. said...

ok I thought I already commented here...but yay for plan a! I can't wait for details.

And...really really wanting to hear what you thought of Cindy McCain's speech! Laurie and Laura have already chimed in.

oh and also I love your potential new blog name. I may steal it. But I would have to add exclamation points. My hs english teacher would die!

p.s. sorry I have been such a lame commenter. your blog is one of my favorites!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Michelle said...

S.~ I'm with Laurie and Mrs. Broc. Guy on the speech. Absolutely nauseating, dontcha think? They really dropped the ball and missed some great opportunities to speak about IA and the reforms needed within IA in a positive way. Wanted to cry, I was so disappointed.